It is relatively late, and I should probably be going to bed. Instead, I’m sitting here knitting, and writing a post. I’m tired, but not tired. My body is tired, but my mind is still whizzing along at a million miles an hour.
When I feel anxious about a situation, the adrenalin kicks in, and it’s hard for me to “settle.” In this situation, the best thing to do is knit. The meditative process of methodical stitch after methodical stitch helps to calm the whirl going on in my head, forces me to sit down and breeeaaathe, and sorts out my thoughts so that I can approach a situation with more clarity. And hopefully, I’ll relax enough so that I can get a few hours of good sleep tonight.
I knit at all times. However, knitting to ‘calm’ has a compulsive quality to it. It’s almost as if I have to work all that excess mental energy out into the knitting, and I can’t stop until it’s done…
And so, I find myself on the picot bind-off row of Wholehearted. Finally, I feel the stillness that I’ve been craving since I got home this afternoon.
From what I can see so far, it isn’t a huge shawl. It will be interesting to see how big it actually is after bind-off and blocking. Scrunched-up stitches on a needle are often deceptive!
According to the pattern, the shawl is 57″ wide by 17″ deep after blocking. That makes it a nice size for draping over the shoulders to keep the chill off on a cool evening.
Let’s see what this baby looks like tomorrow!